Hello blog followers!
We have made it to Kentucky and are all settled in for the evening! Mom, dad, and myself began our journey around 9 this morning and after a few pit stops; we made it in about 8 hours total! We are in a pretty "sweet suite" that gives us the chance to unwind after traveling all day and more importantly, the chance to catch up on blogging! I have been wanting to blog the last few evenings and just haven't gotten around to it since I have been busy preparing for the move so this one is going to be lengthy.
After finding out "my" house is completely furnished and the only thing(s) I needed to be concerned with bringing was myself and warm clothes, the first thing I began to work on was unloading the box trailer that held majority of my life in it! I literally had to unpack the entire trailer, go through everything, and re-box/put away what was not needed for this trip. After spending two days sorting through my belongings and getting everything I owned situated, I was able to get everything to fit into two vehicles for our journey! That's pretty impressive for anyone who knows me and my love to pack everything I own along with the emotional attachment I put on those things! Now seeing out of the back glass...that's a different story!
Besides simply preparing myself for this big transition, I had previously set-up a job shadow opportunity for the day before my move (yesterday, Tuesday) with a Purina representative to gain more insight into a sales position in the agricultural industry focusing on feed and nutrition. At first I felt overwhelmed that I had packed my schedule so tight, but after meeting the rep. and hitting the road for the day I was elated with the idea of working before I moved! I have found that if I keep myself busy it allows me to stay motivated along with being upbeat and positive whereas being lazy tends to drive me to a sad/depressed emotional state, which has been a struggle these last 3 weeks -- we'll get to that later! After a few farm calls, dealer visits, and lunch we called it a day and I headed home to finish packing and cleaning.
Once everything was finished and all boxes were put away that weren't going to make the journey, I made my rounds with family to say "goodbye." This is where the last 3 weeks of emotion kicks in... I have been told that when you graduate from college the transition from college kid to adult is not an easy one and can take a toll on a person emotionally. This is something I have already begun to experience, and already being an "emotionally in-touch" person you can only imagine the things I've been feeling. (I do have to admit though, I haven't cried until last night! Go me!) But anyway, the feelings of anxiety about where my future is going, the what-ifs that come with any change in life, and the sense of not knowing where I belong have been some of the things I have been struggling with. It wasn't until last night where they all came to surface and I cried like a baby after hugging and kissing my beautiful niece goodnight and saying see ya later to my amazing grandparents.
My roots run deep with my family and although I was in Morgantown for 3 years it's never easy to make the decision to leave them and go somewhere new because it's what I need to do for me. I have more support from this small group of people than any one person can dream of and it's because of them I am able to chase these dreams I have. But still, leaving them for any set amount of time is hard for me.
Ultimately I know I am okay, and I am ready for this experience and all that is to come with it. It's just the goodbye's that are the hardest--for those of you wondering, this definitely includes my goodbye's to Jax and Rylie!! So that brings me to today; after 3 weeks of preparing and a few days of emotional mess, I woke up calm and ready for this next journey. Our trip was filled with gorgeous scenery, great conversation, rockin' out to music, and time with my parents. These next 6 months are going to be some of the most challenging yet educational months of my life and I am so ready! I have my family to support me and a best friend here when and if I need her, everything is going to work out just fine! Sarah and I have already found Margaux and even stopped the car in the driveway to squeal and dance before we hurried back to the hotel! I just need to embrace the feelings I have and live in the moment!
So with that; thanks for taking this journey with me, I can't wait to see where it goes!
With love,
Melissa